Life Update

So I figured it's been a little while and that my life have nearly done a 180 so I think I will update while I have a minute to myself to unwind and ramble.

First off, I just got a new internship at the bank helping with the "group tour" department. I have to say---I am going to have the best job ever. Basically, I will be looking through catalogs of different tours to different states, countries, or even different cruises. I then decide which ones I would like to do, gather a group of people to go--and I then get to go on this trip for free as the tour planner. Basically getting paid to travel. I can't wait.

So my internship at the bank is full time, but I also have a job at a piano bar---which I also LOVE. So....I don't have a lot of time to myself...which I was afraid of at first....but come to find out, I kind of enjoy it....besides not having time to enjoy the sun anymore.

Onward.... so..... I believe I mentioned in an earlier post I had decided to put myself back on the market. Well, coincidentally.... I wouldn't say I am in a relationship now....well it's some sort of relationship...but it doesn't have a name yet....all I can tell you is that he is my friend and I am moving 20 hours away to be with him.

I would like to believe I am going to make it past 27.

I'd like to think someday I will find true love again and share a home with them.

Somedays I would like to have some sort of structure to my life.

I wish I could say what I mean to say.

Back on the Market

Okay, so I just woke up and realized how pathetic I am. Minus the douchbag from work I dated three years ago, I have been "single" for over 4 years now and almost 5. So to be honest, I'm not sure that I even know how to be in relationship anymore.

Anyways, I'm in a new town and starting a new life for myself...and figure what the hell, I am back on the market. I guess. Well, not to say that I ever wasn't, but I'll keep my options a little more open now.

So that's my update from out of nowhere. I am feeling optimistic.

Women Fall in Love With Their Ears

My Phoenix/Vegas Vacation

My $800 trip to Vegas .........Expensive, but most definitely worth it :)

Warrensburg

at the right time of the day, warrensburg can be an interesting town. 

old men in top hats with cameras, dressed from the 70's. 

it has it's quarks. 

chinese restaurants and owners that remember you and never fail to ask how your day was. 

photo students taking pictures downtown. 

old people sitting in their wheelchairs, sitting close to pine street but far enough away only to get a taste of warrensburg's youth. 

the youth they once had. 

young, odd, mismatched couples sitting on benches in front of the courthouse. 

the warm weather that brings them out form hiding. 

the smell of college students bbq'ing throughout the town, with loud music constantly echoing throughout. 

live bands outside my bedroom window at east pine pub, blending with johnny's wild crew. 

the youth, in general. 

and people that like to party. 

lots of cats and lots of creepers. 

every bars uniqueness that attracts it's own group of people. 

and the few unique people you will find there. 

the teachers that admire their students.

and the teachers that don't care.

and the one's you occasionally see at the bar. 

the freshmen that dress in their finest to go to lowclass bars. 

the people that are always looking. 

the train. 

oh god, the train. 

Psychoanalyze Yourself :)

With the first Psychoanalyze Yourself; Don't read ahead, just answer the following questions thought that comes to mind. Then read which each answer means at the end. (No cheating! )

DONT READ AHEAD!!!! just copy and paste then go through and answer the questions.

Here Goes:

1. You are walking in the woods. You are not alone. Who is with you? 

MOLLY AND ZOE

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal? 

ELEPHANT

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal? 

I PET IT. TALK TO IT..YOU KNOW. 

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and before you is your dream house. how big is it?

IT'S NOT TOO BIG. JUST BIG ENOUGH FOR ME AND ALL MY PETS. 

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence? how big is the yard?? 

YES, THERE IS A FENCE. I CAN'T LET ALL MY ANIMALS RUN FREE. THE YARD IS GIGANTIC. IT'S LIKE A FIELD-YARD. 

6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room and see the dining table , what is on it?

PAPERS, MY LAPTOP..

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?

A WINE GLASS

8. what do you do with the cup? 

PICK IT UP AND SEE IF THERE IS A SIP LEFT IN IT

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at the end of a body of water what kind of water is it? 

MOST DEFINITELY THE OCEAN

10. How will you cross the water? 

I WON'T CROSS IT, BUT I'LL PADDLE AROUND IN MY LITTLE BOAT FOR A WHILE

After you copy and paste into a new bulletin, and answer ALL the questions above you can look down here.

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The ANSWERS

1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important to you.

MY DOGS? COULD BE TRUE. LOL. 

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.

THE SIZE OF AN ELEPHANT! AWESOME. 

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.

I PET THEM? TALK TO THEM?

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to solve your problems.

SO MY AMBITION ISN'T GIGANTIC..BUT JUST ENOUGH!

5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. 

HMM...TRUE 

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally happy

OKAY...SO I HAVE A LOT OF BIG PROBLEMS...BUT ARE GENERALLY HAPPY! IRONICALLY, THAT IS TRUE :) 

7. The durability of the material that the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.

GLASS? NOT SO DURABLE... GOOD THING I'M NOT IN ANY RELATIONSHIPS I GUESS

8. What you did with the cup is representative of your attitude.

...EVERY LAST SIP

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.

DAMN... REALLY? 

10. The way you cross the water is representative to how easy or hard you expect your life to be.

SO I JUST PADDLE AROUND THROUGH MY LIFE A BIG...FAIR ENOUGH :)

SO...THAT WAS FUN.

Thoughts For 2008

I found this on the internet somewhere :)

Thoughts for 2008

Number 8. Life is sexually transmitted.

Number 7. Good health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die.

Number 6. Men have two emotions: Hungry and Horny. If you see him without an erection, make him a sandwich.

Number 5. Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day; teach a person to use the Internet and they won't bother you for weeks.

Number 4. Some people are like a Slinky ... not really good for anything, but you still can't help but smile when you shove them down the stairs.

Number 3. All of us could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no attention to criticism.

Number 2. Why does a slight tax increase cost you $200.00 and a substantial tax Cut saves you $0.30?

Number 1. In the '60's, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world Is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal.

2008

so it's officially a new year...and i am going to "ramble on" about it for a bit.

first. my body has been starting to feel like a wasteland.

*wasteland: an uninhabited wilderness that is worthless.--->okay, i don't really feel quite that way.

the point of this is....as i've been getting older, more problems with myself and body arise, and i want to get back to where i was before it gets harder to deal with. it's about starting to take care of and renewing myself. this has recently become really important to me within the past several weeks. in 5 months i will be done with school for good and ready to start a "brand new life"...and i want to start it off feeling "well". i feel like i haven't had a "big change" in awhile....and right now i need one and to get myself back in line. it's time for another new beginning, soo...what better time than now.

i probably, generally, wouldn't take the time to share this....but i think that if i share what i am trying to do, it will be easier to stick to. if i keep it to myself, and fail...no harm done. so now that you all know, you can call me a liar if this doesn't really happen.

anyway,

this is my new years resolution:

1) successfully quit smoking...for real this time.
2) no more eating meat.
3) drink 10 times more water than i drink now. basically, a whole lotta watta!
4) begin exercising again.

i think this idea/resolution/plan is probably absolutely typical, but it's for a good cause so i don't mind.

i am not doing it for anyone else. and it's not about weight or anything like that. when i say i want to stop eating meat, it's not to purposely cut out a food group to eat less. the toxins in meat can do a lot of damage, and also can eventually cause colon cancer. just a quick fact: dioxin is one of the deadliest toxins, and is concentrated in meat levels at 22 times what are safe!! there are other reasons it's not safe, but i won't blab on about it, i imagine you get the point. i just don't want that in my body anymore. it's time to take care of and cleanse my body. and speaking of "cleanse", i think eventually in the year i will do an "actual" body cleanse. such as a whole body detox or colon cleanse. everyone should. and as for exercise, it is about getting fit again, but more importantly about healing. does this sound weird for someone my age to already be thinking about this? i don't know? okay, okay. so i am done talking about that!! i am probably starting to bore you :)

new topic...but leading into the same topic:

i have turned into a youtube maniac lately. it is my by-far-favorite website right now. honestly, i will be up until early in the morning watching peoples ridiculous videos. i have no idea how it happens either. i just can't stop...

there is badass "where did these people come from" musicians, amazing choreographers, people with very interesting ideas....etc. etc.

anyway, i feel weird sometimes for getting so involved in some of these people's lives....but they are sharing it.....so i guess that's the point.

watching all of these vidoes make me miss the days where i aspired to be a "brilliant dancer" and the girl-next-door who played guitar and sang. so....i am thinking about picking up the guitar again? i sold mine to my grandpa, an amazing musician, a year or two ago....and i think i may try and buy it back. i would just buy a new one, but this guitar was soo, so, so beautiful. and as for dancing, i am still taking classes every week...but i have been so lazy with it...so i think it's time to step back up and get with the game.

so..leading back to my resolution!

i don't think anyone knows how excited i am about doing this more than i do. i NEVER, ever make new years resolutions...but this, as i said, has become really important to me. this year is calling for a lot of life changing experiences. for once, i am excited about the future...and if i can just pull myself back together and gain control back over my life again it will make it that much better. i think maybe there is more to my plan than quiting smoking and drinking a lot of water. somehow i managed to lose myself this past year...i made a lot of mistakes, and it's time to start over..again.

did you make it to the end?